The funky, sweet, sour, crazy stuff i write

2012-01-15T18:42:00.006+08:00

DAMN! WHY do
YOU have
to DRIVE me
CRAZY?!

2011-12-19T00:54:00.004+08:00

Rolling In the Deep

2011-12-19T00:40:00.001+08:00

Never knew what the lyrics of Rolling in The Deep meant.. well I sure do know it now. It's about loving someone you love and how they just take your heart away, hold it tight and you think that nothing is ever gonna happen, you think you have had it all only to find out that your partner was playing with your heart and now all that remains are scars of the love you once had.. now that its all over and done with and you see everything so clearly, it brings you out of the dark...

We could have had it all
Oh, rolling in the deep

There's a fire starting in my heart
Reaching a fever pitch, and it's bringing me out the dark
Finally, I can see you crystal clear
Go ahead and sell me out and I'll lay your shit bare
See how I'll leave with every piece of you
Don't underestimate the things that I will do

There's a fire starting in my heart
Reaching a fever pitch
And it's bringing me out the dark

The scars of your love remind me of us
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless
I can't help feeling

We could have had it all
Rolling in the deep
You had my heart inside of your hand
And you played it to the beat

Baby, I have no story to be told
But I've heard one of you
And I'm gonna make your head burn
See me now, in the depths of your despair
Making a home down there
'Cause mine sure won't be shared
The scars of your love remind me of us
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless
I can't help feeling

We could have had it all
Rolling in the deep
You had my heart inside of your hand
And you played it to the beat

We could have had it all
Rolling in the deep
You had my heart inside of your hand
But you played it with a beating

Throw your soul through every open door
Count your blessings to find what you look for
Turn my sorrow into treasured gold
You pay me back in kind and reap just what you sow

We could have had it all
We could have had it all, it all, it all, it all
We could have had it all
Rolling in the deep
You had my heart inside of your hand
And you played it to the beat

We could have had it all
Rolling in the deep
You had my heart inside of your hand
But you played it, you played it, you played it
You played it to the beat

2011-12-15T16:22:00.001+08:00

I keep reminding myself to do the right thing. This time, doing the right thing only made me feel like I was being so cruel, so heartless but I guess I have principals in life which I have to stick to it because I created these principals. My faith and my obedience towards my parents is what makes me who I am today, well of course, in my years of growing up, I've learned a lot from the past. Heh..

So today, I feel proud that I have done the right thing only to see the good take place and to be a better person. Never felt better just doing the right thing =)

2011-12-13T19:00:00.002+08:00

Be Strong!

2011-11-17T23:12:00.001+08:00

Everyone has a past that they will have to learn from. Whether it is a good or a bad past, we take it as experiences. We pay our dues for our mistakes we have done in our past and we find joy in the good we have done. Its our own creation of the good and bad that we experience.

Sometimes the past can bring us much regret and how we only wished we had known that all that could have been prevented. Well, like I would say 'everything happens for a reason' and that is life. If God so knew what our future would be like, He would have surely done something to prevent all these mistakes we made but I guess God just wants us to know who He really is and in order to know Him, He lets us be and He makes us go through all of it to learn the hard way and only when we fall and when we stumble and crumble, He will come back for us to bring us back to Him because that is His grace and love only God has for each of us. God alone can lead us on the right path when all things fail.

Now that we are here today, we make the best out of everything our pasts has thought us. We may laugh about those days and think how stupid and naive we were and just move on from the past. Moving on does not only mean just leaving everything behind us but instead, look back and learn from it. Reflect on yourself and improve to be a better person.

Feeling sad, guilty or regretful about 'those days' may sometime haunt us but remember that no one is perfect and that we have chances in our lives to better ourselves. Choose to be better, feel that coming to you. Love yourself more this time and take every given opportunity to improve yourself, to do good, to treat others right and to be humble, patient and kind. Listen to advices and remember that God uses people to teach us and show us the right paths to take so we dont fall again into our own traps. Trust your instincts because that could be God talking to us. Just be still and listen to yourself, only then we will stay awake and be alert to do the right thing.

Finally, when we have come to a point where sometimes things just dont fall into place, dont and never blame yourself for God has greater plans. He knows whats best for us and he knows what we really need and what is good for us. Stay focused on your goals and dreams and let God guide you through and He will make it possible for you.

Just have faith in yourself and be strong. God will do the rest.

Odelia

all because i loved you

2011-11-16T12:28:00.001+08:00

The heart just shatters into tiny pieces and all I can do is try to find those broken pieces and glue them all back but all I get is a distorted heart shape and I try so hard to assemble them all over again but there are some pieces that flew away and just hoping that someday I would be able to fix it the same way it was.

And the pain just fades away letting every breath I take bring me one step forward to something good. Praying and hoping that one day I would find that broken pieces and try to understand why it shattered in the first place when all I did was give my best to take care of it and loved it so much only to let a knife cut through it all only because I loved you.

Changes

2011-09-06T12:49:00.003+08:00

I have never cared this much and never felt this way ever. I have been asking myself and I realised that I now take things more seriously and it's only for one reason and that is because I care. I care so much about the things that takes place, I think a lot about stuffs and I love what is happening to me. The experiences I face now are different than what I used to experience. I have asked and I received more than what I've asked for. Its not a good thing neither a bad thing. It's just different.

To make things better, I'm now in a relationship which is indeed the best thing that has happened to me thus far and it's been awhile since I gave my heart to someone I have only met for a couple of months. It's amazing how things fell into place, how it all started and how it is now. The future seems right..

There are a few changes that took place in my life, a few drastic changes I must say but I'm guessing that these changes are for a good cause because I feel it is so. My heart feels so and I know that all things happens for a reason. Sometimes, it takes someone to show you who you really are and it can be some what a good feeling if you know how to handle the ugly side of you.

Changing from whom I once were also means accepting the person I am and dealing my emotions myself because only I know what is going through my head and how I'm really feeling. No one else can help me even if they tried. Well, at least that is what I think. I have this whole load of things that I have to do to make me feel better and to make me a better person.

I guess, knowing the fact that changing to be a better person is hard enough to deal with, I have to stay calm and be at ease all times and make that changes as time goes by. I know for sure, with an attitude like this.. I'll get far.

Life is like Coffee Movie

2011-07-19T17:13:00.000+08:00

Life is like Coffee Movie: "Do you know people that just seem to be happier in general? Do you say to yourself, "I want to be more like them"? Often, the happiest people in the world don’t have the best of everything...they just make the best of everything!"

ohmygawd moment

2011-07-06T00:31:00.000+08:00

What happens when your best friend tells you that he proposed to his gf and then says that he had me on his mind when he was proposing to her?

How does that make you feel?

It was very awkward for me. Firstly, I needed to pee badly and secondly, I needed to sleep and lastly of course, he is my best friend.
Damn, the situation was totally not called for! I didnt expect that instead I expected him to kiss me because he hinted a few times before this and thank God that did not happen! *what a relieve*

Now, things just got worst.. I really dont know where I stand. Should I pretend like nothing ever happened or should I just back off and let him settle down until he marries her? I don't want to ruin anything between his gf and our friendship. I dont need to mend anything, really.

So my solution is:

1) Stay away from him for the time being and
2) Move forward and continue with life

This incident is an idea for a soap opera.

But seriously, I appreciated his truthfulness. He just need to know what he really wants.

Hit and Run

2011-05-29T21:15:00.013+08:00

My car got hit for the first time today. It was a hit and run and I did not manage to get the number plate.
How could someone be so mean? I feel upset and sad at the same time that this happened to me. Oh, well.. accidents happen.

I thank God I'm alright and the damage is not major...
The least I can do right now, is bless that soul who did not have the balls to apologies.

Thank you, God!

A lil something I have been thinking of...

2011-03-25T23:48:00.000+08:00

Aaah finally, another blog after a long time. I'm sure you would agree with me that the days are passing by so fast and if only we had more time for ourselves.

Here I am, finally sparing the few hours that I have to write a lil' something something.
My goal. It's almost every girl's dream and it's every parent's wish for their daughter to be married and to start a family.

It's amazing how time flies, how fast I grew up, how much responsibilities I have, how much of plans I have made for myself and how I have learn to live life as an adult. Yes, the age is catching up.. I'm not so old but I think it's about time I settled. Settled for something much more.. something that would bring a whole new meaning to my life.

I have to say that we all come to a certain point in our life where we are called to create or make great changes in our lives to experience something much more that what we have now. Some may have a change of career, start a business, move in to a new home, migrate to a different country, some may start a family, have kids, remarry, so much one can do to just bring back that spark into their lives once again. I must say that some do not see it that way. It's a choice we all make.

The thought of marriage has been in my mind for the past few months now. The happiest thoughts of being someone's wife. The thought of waking up next to the man I love, the thought of preparing breakfast, lunch and dinner for him, for the kids. The idea itself excites me everyday. It's strange how all these came into my thoughts. These ideas never really existed last year or the years before this but its happening to me now. Strange but true.

I see newly married couples and I'm just so happy to see how well life is treating them and so I wish that someday soon, I would love to be able to experience all that!

So, here I am.. writing about my dream of being a wife, a mother, a mrs.... I smile whenever this word pops into my head. hehe.. But till the day comes, when it's all clear and when I'm really ready, I'll make sure that I'll stay the same, the same ol' me.. the same Delia I am but of course with more wifey and motherly responsibilities.

So cheers to being single while I still am enjoying it and yes, I'm looking forward to much more than that that will come my way!

We are what we Create

2011-02-07T11:17:00.001+08:00

July 2010 was the last time I blogged! Oh mai gosh!

It was a very busy year in 2010 and I recon another busy 2011. Which is going to be great!

So much has happened, so much has changed but of course many things still remains the same which in a way, is good and perfect just the way it is.

Last year I listed my goals. My dreams which I have been wishing for this year. I must say that some has actually come through and some is yet to happen and that is why I did not create any resolutions this year. I would like to be bold enough to say that I'm very, very proud of myself because of what I was able to achieve and what I have done to improve myself. Of course, there are some things which I regret doing and some which has thought me a great lesson. I believe that this is just part of who I am and that is what I've created for myself.

I have met new friends and some who appears to have and is still playing an important part of my life. It feels good knowing that there are still people around the world who cares for each other. I have met someone who actually taught me a lot about God and life as a whole. I bless that person. My family, who has also molded me for what I have become today, I bless them more.. My friends, I bless them so much for always being around me because without them I would not know what fun, sadness, heartache and most importantly I will never know what loneliness would have felt without them.

This year I have been reading so much and I'm enjoying it very much that I wished I had started this habit a long time ago. I just need to spend more time reading as that helps with making me a better person because I feel that reading actually gives me time to do some soul searching. I have my me time when I read and I think everyone should spare more time for themselves because it actually helps to ease the mind, gives peace to the inner being and helps with mental and emotional growth.

The best is to read positive, motivational books because it makes you feel good about yourself. At least I know it helped me develop my overall being.

Well, here I am today just feeling good about everything. Of course there were days and moments where things just didn't seem to go the way I wanted it to be but that is just how it is and I've learned to accept it because nothing happens without a reason and whatever happens, I have learnt to just bless that day or moment that took place. I may sound all perfect but having created what and how I want things to be just makes me feel good about life itself and with all this, I learnt to love myself more and more everyday and when I started making these changes upon myself, good things just flows in and life just gets better everytime I say.. "Its' OK. It's all good!" and I move on. To some this may sound difficult to do well, I'm still learning the tricks to making all this work and I must say that all good things falls into place when you are ready for it to come into your life.

Last but not least, just a note to all.. remember we are what we create. Create the good stuff and you will see your life change in an instant because by doing this, it only means that you simply love your life because God made it such for you!!!

Sawadikap.

xoxox

Weird and Wonderful

2010-07-08T23:26:00.000+08:00

Its like ages since I decided to change myself, to be a better person all over again. It never really happens, surely, I mean, I always keep trying to change to be a better person. This year is different. This year a lot has taken place, life got worst then got better and back to where it all started- like nothing ever happened. So you see, not much changes has been made. Finances the same, friends the same, work the same, family the same.. life nearly shut down a couple of times. With loads of encouragement from myself, I decided to move on.. I remembered that we go through shit every other day and we come to a phase in life where the shit and stink remain for a few weeks, sometimes months. Hmm, never more than a year. Surely, to count your blessings every day.

So you see, I'm trying to do what is right, trying to keep up with work and play, trying to keep the cash, trying to be nice to my friends and trying to ensure that I can do it this time round, again. Life would be much more simpler if we hadn't had the mind to think so much about it. Life could have been easier if it was not a necessity to work our ass off. Money would have been growing on trees if we had unconsciously thought it will and if the clouds above us was always cloud number nine, we would be making love every minute! Well, however my mind works, I believe that nothing comes just like that and nothing goes if we never put force in it. We always work for something and this 'work' never ends till the day we die.

People have so many reasons to talk about you or they might find the stuff you do rather interesting or annoying and they start talking about you. I'm talking about myself as well.. it's just human nature because we enjoy talking about other people especially their faults. Ten out of eight talks good about someone they know. It's just a matter of getting used to it- living in a world of jealousy, selfishness, self centeredness, cruelty and worries, we got to cope with the people around us. Maybe the good ones are all in their places of worship praying hard for us to change, so that the world would be a better place to live in for our children's children. So, we pray for a better tomorrow and keep the faith strong and it grows from there hoping that when you die, you'd go to heaven.

The funny part about changing my life to be differently better than the norm, the friends are the ones who start noticing the changes but the family hardly ever- they see the good side of us, cos we've always proved to be trusted family members,responsible and accountable, always the good parent, never the bad one, that's why the family never really sees it. Instead friends they see you as a different person and they start to ask the rest about you.. they start wondering and start assuming making them asses of you and me. There's a high possibility that they will come up to you and ask if you're fine. Well, you tell them the truth and then they get it and yes! they admit that you're a changed person! When that happens, it does not mean they get it-there's always a story behind it. Weird.

Wonderful it is to be where I am now, to see everything the way it is, to be open to almost everything, to see your friends maturing faster than you and to feel this way just like how you felt it last year. Changes never really had a real meaning to it- it happens and it makes you, you and you can't really depend on it until one day when you you don't really care about anything at all but yourself, thats a change. Perhaps, a change is walking around naked with nipple stickers in the office. That's a weird change. I would love to try that one day and see if it changes my life.. hah! Life has to be wonderful somewhere, some way.

2010-06-24T14:57:00.001+08:00

I seriously need a breather right now!
I wish I could take everything in and handle it on my own but I cant.
I need your help. God, help me.

At times, I want to just cry and cry and let everything out but I cant.
I want to be strong, I want to stay positive- that's all that matters after all.
I want to be strong and I need the strength to carry on with my everyday routine life.

This month has been the worst of all.
I've been unwell, been tied down with work
My stress has caused me loads of complications with my health.
It just got worst from last month!

I want to get out of this, now! Today.
I want to go fishing, I want to watch the sun set
I want to feel the breeze in my face,
I want to just lay back and listen to what my heart is telling me

I just want time for myself
I wished I could compromise with the shit load
I wish I could take in so much and give more
Please let me be. Leave me alone.

I will survive with the help of my God. I know I will.

Pondering it over...

2010-06-15T23:57:00.000+08:00

Most of the time, its best to leave a problem alone rather than trying to fix it- that could end up into trouble if it never really concerned me in the first place.

Sometimes, its best to just let things take its cause. To me, I believe that almost everything happens for a reason. I may not see the reason now, but when I'm alone and when I rethink, only then I'll understand that there's always a possibility of having something good come my way. A prayer helps when nothing seems right, just leave it to the man above. He'll settle it.

I shot your ex-girlfriend! Muahahahha!

2010-06-03T14:24:00.008+08:00

It's like...

2010-05-21T00:00:00.002+08:00

It's not the right time when things just don't fall into place. It's like as if you don't have the right or the complete ingredient to finish that meal you are cooking. The aroma just doesn't seem right till you've added that final ingredient.

I would relate this to love. To the person you've found, who is so close yet so far. So right yet so wrong, so real yet so unbelievable. He makes you go crazy then leave and he returns only to make you smile and be happy once again then disappear only to come back so he can give you more when you least expects him to return. He's like chips-more, now you see it, now you don't. It's like chocolate, it's like ecstasy, its like something you would crave for, like a stick of cigarette, like ice-cream, something you want so much but you got to work really hard for it. You just want more of it but it's never enough.

It'll never be enough, never complete till the time comes when everything falls into place. Time, patience and lots of compromising. You've got to train your mind, you heart and your emotions to be in control of the cravings of wanting more. It'll be wrong to keep going back for more, to keep asking for more and to keep letting yourself go- you know you're not going to get more of what you want till the time is right.

Bottom line is, just go with the flow and when the time is right.. the love you've been waiting for will come to you, everything that you've craved for will be given to you and when that happens.. remember, that it took you a lot of your precious time to come to this stage- so now, it's time you take care of that love you've received, lay back and enjoy every moment of it. You can never get enough of love, you just keep asking for more.

Think about it...

2010-05-03T12:34:00.003+08:00

It's all about loving yourself.. I remember saying this many times, reminding myself that no one is responsible to make me happy but myself.

A friend of mine can never find happiness with herself due to everything that has happened to her many years ago. She found happiness for awhile then it disappeared and now she finds it difficult to love herself again. She has been hurt many times and every time it happens she looses her self-esteem and she tends to be very negative whenever she talks about her everyday life. She blames herself over the mishaps that has happened and is currently happening. She looks at life as a problem. I feel really sorry for her because she thinks that nothing is possible. To her, everything is very stressful and she cannot accept it. Her life is upside down and she feels that everything is falling apart and life is so painful. She often falls sick.

Do you feel stressed up and uncomfortable reading all that I've said so far? Well, can you imagine what this person is going through? If only she hadn't said all these bad words, she would definitely be happy once again. It's all very negative and so demotivating knowing the fact that someone so beautiful, so blessed with a roof above her head, who has good clothes and shoes to wear, who has a salary to buy food and eat anything she wants, to go shopping and finally who has a family who loves her very much. Can you see the blessings that has bestowed upon her? She don't really see all this I guess. Well if she did, she would be loving herself as much as possible this very moment despite the problems she is facing.

Loving and caring for oneself is the best present ever you could give yourself everyday. When you give yourself the best, you receive the best. Good things will all fall into place and when that happens grab it because you deserve it, if you say that you don't deserve it, I guess you just don't see yourself as an achiever and you never really saw yourself as someone worthy. Count your blessings!

We all know that when things go wrong in our life, its just another mistake we got to learn from it and if it happens again and again, then it's time to evaluate yourself and ask yourself what is it that you're doing or have not been doing? We should never blame the situation or people around us for our mistakes or the problems that we're facing. Always look for solutions to solve a problem and not live with it. Shit happens every other day, we just got to learn to overcome it and change the situation.

My friend, when God created us, he breathed in us and he gave us life. Would God then want to make our lives miserable? Think about it.

Mama...

2010-04-26T14:17:00.005+08:00

If only my mama was still around.. I guess talking to her bout stuff would have solved the troubles and worries I have and also the happiness and good times I've had.

Last night, a thought just came to me and I thought how awesome it would have been if mama was around at this present time. I wonder how she would have felt if I spoke to her about relationships, friendships and my family. I'm sure she would have been so happy to talk to me about her past and how she handled stuff like this and she would have definitely spoke to me about her ex-boyfriends. It makes me wonder, what mama would have advised me about men...

If she was around, I would have definitely told her everything that is happening to me right now and it'll be our little secret we share. Sometimes, when the tough gets tougher- I wished I could just drive over to Praya Lane in Malacca (my kampung) and sit with her at the long makan wooden table in the kitchen and tell her everything. She would have listened and would have cracked a few small jokes in between- just like how I would do if I had grandchildren of my own. Hmmph, I cannot stop but imagine how it would have been like if mama was still around.

The last time I was with her, I was 6 yrs or 7yrs old. I can't recall. I can however remember the stuff she used do with us, her grandchildren. She used to keep coins in her pocket which was tied around her waist with a sarong. I think her children used to call it kocek. Every time, when I wanted to go anywhere, she would take out some coins and put it in my palms. It was a joyous moment for me. My family visited mama almost every other week during her last few months she had with us..

Anyway, I'm glad to have met her before she left and the fond memories I have with her will forever remain close to my heart. Honestly, sometimes I do get jealous when I see how most of my cousins and friends still have their grandparents around. I wished mine was still around too!

Also, I would love to start my memoir by writing everything about me so that when I'm dead and gone, the next generations to come would know me as I have written. I think everyone should start their own memoir. It'll be fun.

She's such a nice girl...

2010-04-07T00:14:00.000+08:00

The similarities between being nice and being kind is that you are loved by all. The difference is that people tend to step on your head when you are nice and kind both at the same time.

As of today, I've decided to be kind but not as nice as I used to be. I hope I don't sound mean cos this is how it's gonna be.

I am not gonna give in all the time, not gonna be the 'nice guy' and not gonna be obligated in anyway cos that is how successful people come up in life. THEY DONT GIVE TWO SHITS ABOUT WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THINK OF THEM!

Looking at my horoscope (I'm not supposed to believe in such things) but I look at the good side of it. One of if it is that, Librans are always making other people happy. I guess that is what I have become. I'm nice and kind to every Tom, Dick and Harry and at the end of the day I feel like shit cos I never really thought about myself first instead I took care of how others felt and I would go into a depression mode for days and pretend like everything is okay.

I've been a great help to the people I love the most... no doubt about that and I'm proud of myself for being someone who cares and someone whom my loved ones can depend on. Honestly, it sucks being the better person sometimes. It sucks because I forget myself at times and I tend to neglect my whole being especially my own feelings. I know I should priorities myself and not others. Then again if things just don't happen the way its supposed to be, I'd blame myself.. cos I could have helped and changed the situation. (maybe not, but at least I helped) So, it's time I say NO and walk away. I know I'm not gonna hurt anyone by doing this instead I'm gonna make that person a better person.

I would live my life being kind.. I don't want to be the one who is forever apologizing. Those sorry days are over. I guess I'll have to make others pay for their own mistakes cos I was not born to mend things to make it right for them. I would do everything that would make me happy. Happiness is the most important part of love you can give yourself.. and yes, that is what I'm gonna give myself, Happiness.

Good bye to the nice gal I used to be... Hello Delia.

Pucker up!

2010-04-02T21:46:00.000+08:00

How much do you know about kissing?

When I first learn how to kiss it was like as if I was learning how to drive for the first time.

The first time is always the best kiss I must say unless you may have had a nasty experience, I do not know... but for me, it was ooohhlaa laa laa. The heart skips a trillion times, loosing my breath, the knees gets weak and so on. Each moment from the taste of the saliva, the texture of the lips to the twirls of the tongue just makes you kiss even more. A pasionate kiss can go one for more than 10 minutes or so. Maybe more. Well, all it takes is to just make that first move whether you're a guy or a girl.

Key point: Girls, the guys loves it when a girl makes the first move.. its a huge turn on for them. So girls, you know what to do. Wait! Before you do anything, I would recommend you to read this book, The Art of Kissing by William Cane. An awesome book for anyone who thinks that they know so much about kissing.. trust me, once you've read this book, you wouldn't want to put it down. For instance, this book features advise on overcoming first-kiss shyness (for the first timers), secrets to increasing your "kissability", how to be an expert French kisser and loads of tips and tricks for neck kisses, ear kisses, electric kisses and many more.

So ladies and gentlemen, hold on to your tongues cos' there's loads of sucking and biting to do! hehehee... Grab a copy to find out more!

To LOVE oneself is a DECISION!

2010-04-01T14:24:00.002+08:00

It's been one month since I quit smoking. It's so good to know that I'm able to make a difference in my life, well that is what we should all do before it's too late.

Knowing the fact that I've got more curves now makes me a little worried because I feel fat. I'm not as fat fat fat but my clothes just don't fit the way it used to. By saying all this I still am very proud of myself because I DID IT! I QUIT SMOKING and I've finally had the courage, the will-power to get over it. To be honest, the urges still returns when I'm stressed or when I'm bored. By God's ever loving grace, he has helped me overcome all this. Many friends may have given up on me because of my failures to quit smoking, as of today... I've proven them wrong. YES! I did it and I'm going all the way to make sure that I lead a better lifestyle.

My close friend Val too have stopped smoking about the same time as I did and thank God for blessing me with a companion who is now a non-smoker because it would have been a little difficult for me if I was the only one who stopped smoking. Well, when I prayed I asked God to help me quit.. I guess he wanted me to have more than what I've asked for- he didn't just make me go through it alone, instead he got Val to join me. Sorry Val, it wasn't me! The way I look at it is that everything happens for a reason at the right time according to His plan.

As I get 'younger', I've realized that life is so much more important and to gain respect and love from others we must first love ourselves. I respect my body just like how I would want others to respect me. Therefore, the saying goes- To love is a decision-

Well, there's so much more I'll have to do in order to make a difference in my life and to the people around me. Last month I've decided to quit smoking for good.. I wonder what good will happen next?

A reunion over a sad occasion

2010-03-30T13:41:00.002+08:00

It's been 9 years since the PJ College of Art & Design students reunited, though not everyone came. This morning I attended my lecturer's funeral at Assumption church. He was diognosed with heart disease. His name is Joseph Fernz, but we, the PJCAD students call him Mr.J or Mr.Joe. He was an awesome lecturer who hardly got upset and he always made us laugh during his classes. We used to hang out together on breaks or after class- he was like a friend of the same age when hanging out together. Our mamak sessions is something I'll never forget. He was the coolest lecturer ever! He loved his students like as if it was his very own children. A kind, humble, honest and understanding person was he.

This morning as we sat down in church to say our last goodbye's, many teared because of the good memories he had left behind in our hearts. Though I have not had kept in touch with him after a long time only recently via Facebook, his ways and his lecturing is something I will never forget. Mr. J was a very, very talented man, he was an artist and he made every picture he painted or drew mean something. His paintings had a life of its own. I've learnt so much from him when it came to drawing...

It was indeed a very sad day today that Mr. J had to leave his family, friends and students behind only to be in a better place. I'm sure he's looking down on us wishing us the best in life. My sister once told me that, when a person dies, it means that God needed him/her more than we need him/her. Its true.

Having said all this, my deepest condolences goes out to his family and his close friends. Mr. J, you will always be remembered forever!
Cheers to you! May you rest in peace.

Faith without Action

2010-03-02T00:48:00.001+08:00

Faith without action. These is exactly what my mom said.
According to her, faith is when you pray about it, trust God in everything that you do and wait for it to happen.. but with no action don't expect the Man up there to help you get what you want or need. These three wise words from my mom made me think really hard about wanting something badly is to pray for it and work towards it. I mean, if you don't put in effort in getting what you want then God can't really help you unless he sees you putting your heart and soul into it.

Like a job for instance, if you want that particular job, don't expect to press your butt on that sofa once you've send in your resume.. you've got to do a follow-up on it and if you think waiting for an answer is gonna benefit you then good if not go out and look for other opportunities. You never know, you might get something much more better!

So yeah, FAITH WITHOUT ACTION equals NO RESULTS. Therefore, trust in God, do your part and you'll get the result you want.

Good Luck!

OMG! Everyone I know is gettin married!

2010-02-19T10:34:00.003+08:00

Lately, many friends and relatives asked me if I was gonna get married anytime soon. With a serious laugh I'd say not anytime soon. Some even suggested to help me find for a boyfriend/ husband. Some suggestions were much worst but I shall not mention it here as it's stupid and hilarious.

So here I am thinking about getting hitched. Just thinking.. nothing more.
Okay, okay..
Let me get this straight. I'm not promoting that I'm single and that I'm available neither am I hinting about getting married or I'm lonely in any way.
I'm just having a debate with myself about marriage. Haha... farnee I know.

You know how it is when everyone else is buying a house, getting engaged and soon it's their hens/ bachelor party and the next thing you know, you're receiving a wedding card and soon after that you hear that they're having a baby and so on... and we have a happily married couple with a lovely baby in a beautiful home.

I've heard rumors that if someone from a group of friends gets married, soon after everyone else in that group will be getting married, it's as if everyone will suddenly fall in love and the next thing you know everyone is getting married one after another. Its like a chain... weird as it sounds, I wonder if all this is true and if it is, I wouldn't bother looking around cos I know that my turn will come without effort in looking around for the 'perfect' man. LMAO!!

Well, come to think of it.. I'm turning 27 and I'm getting bored. Not old, not lonely. smiles
Some people I know told me not to worry about getting married so soon.. "You're only 27 this year, why you wanna rush? Look at me, I got married at 30.. now I have 3 kids.. it's okay larrr!" So yeah.. that's what they tell me. And on another hand.. I hear "Girl, you're 26 already, when are you gonna get married?!

So, looking at these ppl who got married at the age of 30 or older and now they have 3 kids. Hello!! You had a boyfriend at 23.. and you courted for 7 yrs and obviously I see why you didn't really have to worry about getting married at the age of 30 that is because you knew he was gonna marry you! Then again.. what if he decides to call it off? Damn... You're one lucky woman.

Men. Some men love talking about babies, they love talking about the type of wife they want.. and they plan on how many kids they wanna have. On another hand, some men would freak out the moment a girl talks about marriage. Why is that so? Strange.

So coming back to getting hitched, why do most women feel that they should settle down by the age of 30? If given the opportunity, if they already had a partner.. why not just settle down, have kids, do the housework... and have more kids? For obvious safety reasons, woman should have babies before the age of 40. Men. No problem at all.

Looks like a girl, being 27, not attached, not seeing anyone, still mingling is OKAY.
Honestly, life to me, is simple. I take every chance I have to make it much more interesting. I wouldn't wanna waste my life regretting. My life as it already is, is too beautiful to be ruined.

So to all the single ladies.. those who ARE TOTALLY SINGLE, NO PARTNERS.... this song is for you!

Btw, Valentines Day was awesome!

Sweet Caroline- Puck, GLEE

2010-02-16T00:50:00.000+08:00

I'm not desperate YET lah!

2010-01-31T03:46:00.000+08:00

Visited a family doctor yesterday cos I was down with a really bad flu and sore throat. Could not get my arse to work and I needed the MC. So there I was seating with my brother waiting for my turn to see the doctor, guessing if the doctor would give me the MC. His name is Dr. Richard.. not too old not too young- maybe in his late 40s. I think he has a beautiful wife cos he's not that good looking! HAHA.. ok.. so, there I was seating in my chair facing him. He's asking me if I had skipped work today and with a soft tone I said eer, yes.. I did not go to work today. So he checked for fever, stuck the termometer under my tongue and of course I was feverless, checked my throat and as usual my tonsils was swollen.. got me lying down on his whatever bed you call it and he checked my heart beat. I was kinda okay.

Anyway, while Dr. Richard was writing me my meds and MC, he asks me the same old question. And the conversation goes like this:

Dr: So, girl where you working now?
Me: Same place, Pansing.. the book distribution company.
Dr: Oh, same place.. I see.
Me: Yeah la, same place.
Dr: So, you married edi ah???
Me: Hahahaha... no la doc, looking around. hahahaha.... hahaha.. hahaha... (So not!)
Dr: You know ah, my daughter got married last year. She's younger than you.. 1985? and you are what, 27 this year? You got boyfriend already or engaged?
Me: Yeah, 27.. heheheheee.. (shit!!) No lah, no boyfriend.. haha.. (got la one, two... stupid!)
Dr: You cannot be so choosy you know.. what ever comes along you take la..(he grins). As long as he has a good heart, got good job. You want ah, I introduce you to some people?
Me: Hahaha... 35 below ok lah... hahahha (What about your son??- He made me feel desperate! Fuck did I just say ok to his idea? Hell no, I don't need help in this!)
Dr: Hahahahaha... oh ok ok.
Me: hahahah hahahah hahah (shit, what the hell??!)
Dr: Ok...
Me: Stands up, walk towards the door... "Happy Chinese New Year!"
Dr: Ok, thank you!

And.. so now I'm left thinking if I'm too old to get married?? hahah... damn the doctor. Everytime I see him he talks to me about marriage but this time he didn't mention anything about his son (maybe his son has found a gf?) Well, he made me feel worst... Damn the conversation was awkward and this time he said he would introduce me to some ppl he knows and hopefully their not his classmates!!!

I'm not looking forward to meeting anyone...... not now. When I'm ready.

Face it!

2010-01-19T14:35:00.000+08:00

What does is mean to be real?

Sometimes things just don't seem to be the way it's supposed to be, or sometimes it could mean that it's just not meant to be.

I've always wondered if things happens for a reason. Someone made a statement recently that only good things happens for a reason and bad things don't. I'm quite sure that shit happens for a reason and so does every good thing. It's only a matter time maybe years to only realise what the reason is.

It's what you really believe in and the kinda faith you have.

Falling in love with someone I hardly know could be a good thing and then one day realise that it is not meant to be. I guess I've felt this way before way back in high school and then as we graduate we go our separate ways. It was different then cos we had goals we wanted to achieve and we had a different mind set altogether as we matured. Come to think of it- I never had a heartbreak until I reached 18 years.

I guess the reason I never fell deeply in love with someone while in high school was becos I might not have been able to take the circumstances and make the right decisions- maybe also because we we never into each other.

Now, it's totally different. Everything seems so REAL. so SERIOUS- everything matters. Money, career, family, friends and a huge load of responsibility and everything has to be considered wisely before making the right decision to fall in love. I've got to seriously think before I actually fall in love - Falling in love is no longer at first sight because it has to be at the right time and it has to be fair for both parties.

Well, I guess that is why I need to get real. It's time to be aware of who I should fall in love with, where and when. It's like a freaking bloody test and patience is something I've got to have to be in the love mode. Never have I felt this way before. I guess there's more to love afterall.. can't just fall into it eh?

Sometimes I wished I never was in a position like this. I never wanted to be in this kinda situation anyways but then why does it have to happen to me? Why? So you see, it's so unfair and yet I feel that this is a good thing because I've learnt a lot from this and the dilemma which I'm going through would only be temporary because things happens for a reason.

I guess I'm left with no choice but to start getting real cos that's what life is all about- I've got to face reality.

However, I wish that falling in love would not be this tough because I've never met real love- it was always just temporary.

Finally, if a guy is really into me he'd tell but if he tries to be on the safe side of the boat then maybe he was never into me. Then again it's not concrete, I don't know. I'm stuck in between don't know if I should move on.

Awake in my sleep..,

2010-01-12T17:24:00.005+08:00

It's like I'm awake in my sleep. It's not a dream neither is it real. This has been happening for the longest time now. I mean it's been going on for the past week now. I shut my eyes and I tell myself it's time to sleep. It's late and I've got a long day tomorrow. I turn to my left and I face the wall, my breathing gets heavier at every inhale I take and after some time, I feel the cramp on my arms then my feet.. my feet starts to sweat and I turn to my right. DAMN... this thing goes on till I actually sleep off for about 4 hours then I'm aware of my surroundings once again cos I can still feel and hear myself breathe. I'm worried cos I wake up to every little sound that goes around. Yeah, I'm a light sleeper but now it's gotten worst. Two nights ago, I could hear my neighbor fart in the bathroom, then after 2 minutes, I heard him cough then i think he puked and farted again. It made me stay awake even longer that night. I smiled as I close my eyes because I actually heard my neighbor fart- disgustingly true but pity that guy, I think he had food poisoning. So, I slept at almost 2 am I think and I was really tired but then again I started to feel uneasy... so I stayed awake in my sleep.

Is there something wrong with me? Or is it because I've been thinking too much bout every goddamn thing. My colleague already commented that I've been looking very grumpy this past few days and yeah, I think I noticed that myself.. Yesterday, I looked into the mirror and I saw dark circles around my eyes, I look really pale and it's scary cos I've never been through this so called insomnia I think. Oh yeah, could it be my pillow or my mattress that I sleep on?? I really don't know what is happening but it's scary!

Oh God, help me!

So, here I am... trying to express my deepest troubles.. hehe. I'm just tired of trying to sleep cos I only fall deep into sleep at 6am when my sister wakes up for school and here I am looking like an 'almost zombie' trying to work.

My Christmas Wish List:

2009-12-22T14:49:00.000+08:00

Here's what I REALLY NEED:

Purse

Lingerie

Return ticket to France

A New Handphone (iPhone)

Levi's Jeans (Slim fit)

A set of new make-up brushes

A new MAC powder

A laptop bag

A new watch

A new swimsuit

Thanking you in advance!

With love... delia

Oh 2009!

2009-12-17T16:43:00.001+08:00

Seven days before Christmas and I realised how the months just flew by and having so much more to accomplish before I turn 27 in 2010. Looking back at the the happy and sad events of my life, I wonder if the pain and joy was worth going through. I mean, I could have avoided the pain and had more joy instead. I guess that's what life is all about- to enJOY, we've also got to feel pain along the way.

Looking back at what happened beginning of this year, sometimes makes my heart a lil heavy cos I was still not ready to face 2009. I wish there was 35 days in December.. I wanna make things right before the year ends. That's the problem-I procrastinate too much, and this will not happen starting today. When 2010 comes, things are gonna be different, I'm gonna start anew and success is what I'm looking forward to. Yeeahhh!

The people I've met along the way in 2009 has definately changed my life in ways I've never imagined. The friends I've known for years has indeed made me a better person as well. The smiles, the arguements, the laughter and the heart breaking moments has made me a happier person today. As corky as I may sound, I must say that these eventful moments are those that I'll cherish forever.

The sick, hangover, tiring, boring, sickening and worst days will all come to an end for 2009 but one thing remains is that I will surely have to go through all this all over again because that's how it is. I'm not being negative but that's just the nature of life but of course I'm hoping for good things to happen in 2010. Like get married, have kids and have own my BMW!! hehehe... jolly good!

Looking back again at the sad moments, hmmph.. it's something I will have to learn from and to be strong at accepting the bad stuff that has happened. I'm not gonna feel depressed or guilty and I will never have any regrets.. I cant afford to feel guilty cos the guilt can kill. =) I must say that I may have hurt many people as well, forgive me please if you haven't found the slightest reason to forgive me yet. Do I owe anyone money?? shit.. I dont think so.

Oh yeah before I forget.. my galfrens may know of my pledge. HAHA.. mentioning it here tickles me. I cant believe that a pledge like this could even exist! It's a pledge I shall keep private and confidential till the day I die. A pledge which only applies to me! =D As serious as I must be.. I shall forever keep this pledge close to my 'heart'.

2010 here I come!

DON'T LET THAT PUBIC GO PUBLIC!

2009-12-10T15:12:00.001+08:00

You need to pee badly, rush to the washroom, push open the cubicle door, and you see pubic hair on the seat!

Damn.. that's what been happening to me for the past 2 days! I saw a 1 inch long pubic hair on the toilet seat! Fuk, that' super long OK! Not that I bothered to measure but I could tell... HAHAA.. Someone's got some massive huge ass bush disorder and they need therapy and grooming badly. Have they not thought off trimming that hair off? I mean, if you think that your bush is thick enough to catch a bush fire, I honestly think it's best you just cut it off LA! You don't want your pubic hair sweeping the ground when you pull that panty/undies down only to realise that it's time for a trim???

Seriously, try grooming that private part of yours and you might feel much lighter and cleaner down there and you wouldn't scare anyone especially your partner. haha. Those hair are meant to be kept private. Oh gosh.. I cant believe I'm saying all this.

You might find "how to trim your pubic hair tutorials" on youtube! Search for 'Trim My Bush Tutorial' LOL.. =D Remember... DON'T LET THAT PUBIC GO PUBLIC!

Men and Women listen up!

2009-12-01T14:49:00.002+08:00

Note: This article relates to women as well =D

You got dumped again, huh? We’d say “sorry about your luck” if we thought luck had anything to do with it. To be perfectly honest with you, however, the fact that you keep getting dumped over and over again is probably your fault. Sorry, pal. Now it’s time for some tough love.

We know it’s easier to believe that all women everywhere are crazy: they don’t understand you, they don’t know what they want, etc. But isn’t it infinitely more likely that the cause of your frequent relationship failures is, in fact, you? Might it not be the case that you are the reason why you got dumped - again?

It’s not that you’re a bad guy; it’s probably just that you are stuck in a cycle of bad decisions and bad behavior. See, certain kinds of relationship mistakes are self-reinforcing. For example, a man might get dumped because he’s too clingy, but getting dumped will only make him clingier in his next relationship, which gets him dumped again, and again, and again. It’s a vicious cycle.

If you’re trying to figure out why you got dumped - again, read on and see if any of these guys sound at all like you.

You’re too clingy

It’s good to be enthusiastic about your relationship. Girlfriends appreciate your appreciation, but make no mistake about it, there is a clinginess line and you can cross it. Recognize that being clingy may be the result of enthusiasm and infatuation, or it might be a kind of defense mechanism. Ask yourself if you’re holding on to your girlfriend simply because you’ve been dumped before and you’re worried about getting dumped again. If the answer is “yes,” you need to break the cycle so you don’t get dumped - again. Remember, absence makes the heart grow fonder.

You’re too jealous

A little bit of jealousy is normal; picking a fight every time she talks to another man is not. If your girlfriends consistently accuse you of being too jealous, you might have trust issues. Did a previous partner cheat on you? Does the memory of that betrayal affect the way you behave in your current relationship?

Keep in mind that not every woman is unfaithful, but unreasonable jealousy is enough to drive just about every woman out of your life and into a relationship with someone else.

You don’t take responsibility

Some of you men out there love to play the blame game. Things are never your fault. If you’re fighting with your girlfriend, it’s because she’s being unreasonable. If you’re upset, it’s because of something she did. If you’re unhappy, it’s her fault. You blame the women in your life until they leave you, and then you blame them for that too.

The more women “screw you over” the more you resent them for it. Well, if you’re looking for the reason why you got dumped - again, it’s time to take a long hard look in the mirror, friend.

We have more reasons to help you understand why you got dumped – again…

You’re too nice

See if this sounds familiar: You try to impress and please your girlfriends by being as nice as you possibly can be. You don’t complain, you don’t argue and, god forbid, you ever raise your voice.

Then, after she leaves your smiley, simpering ass behind for another guy, you respond by being even nicer to the next girl you date, buying her gifts for no reason, and giving her nightly backrubs. And that’s why you got dumped - again.

We’re not saying you have to be a dick like some of the TV jerks out there, but the maxim “nice guys finish last” didn’t come out of thin air. Grow a backbone, and get some self-respect and you’ll have more relationship success.

You’re indiscriminate

If you find yourself getting dumped repeatedly, it might be because you’re being indiscriminate. You might think that lowering your standards will make finding a girlfriend easier. But it just means you’re going to keep picking the wrong girl; then, out of desperation, you’ll cast your net even wider only to end up making another bad decision. You’ll never find the right girl until you become more discriminating. Finding the one means being picky.

You invest too much emotionally

Investing too much emotionally is another possible reason why you got dumped - again. As your friends pair up and you keep struggling to find that special someone, you might start to get a little freaked about the idea of being alone. Consequently, in each new relationship you almost immediately start wondering if she’s the one. As the perfect match continues to elude you, you become increasingly sure that finding the right girl is the only way you’ll ever be happy. This is the kind of mindset that puts too much pressure on your partners, ultimately dooming the relationship before it starts.

Courtesy of Askmen.com

Happy

2009-11-12T23:09:00.002+08:00

Happy by Leona Lewis..

someone once told me
that you have to choose
what you win or lose
you cant have everything
dont you take chances
you might feel the pain
dont you love in vain
cause love wont set you free
i could stand by the side
and watch this life pass me by
so unhappy but safe as could be
so what if it hurts me
so what if i break down
so what if this world just throws me off the edge
my feet run out of ground
i gotta find my place
i wanna hear my sound
dont care about other pain infront of me
cause im just tryna be happy, yea
just wanna be happy, yea

holding on tightly
just cant let it go
just tryna play my roll
slowly diasappear, oooh
well all these tears
they feel like theyre the same
just different faces, different names
get me outta here
well i can stand by the side
and watch this life pass me by
pass me by
so what if it hurts me
so what if i break down
so what if this world just throws me off the edge
my feet run out of ground
i gotta find my place
i wanna hear my sound
dont care about other pain infront of me
cause im just tryna be happy
just wanna be happy
oooh

so any turns that i cant see
ill count a stranger on this road
but don’t say victim
dont say anythng
so what if it hurts me
so what if i break down
so what if this world just throws me off the edge
my feet run out of ground
i gotta find my place
i wanna hear my sound
dont care about all the pain infront of me
cause im just tryna be happy
just wanna be happy

2009-08-26T15:50:00.003+08:00

Once you have a tattoo, you'd want another one. It's like an addiction. Well, too much of everything is bad. Therefore, i've decided that another tattoo wont harm me and I seriously am looking of having a tiger lily tattoo on my foot. A black & white tat. It'll be my Christmas present!! Weeeeheeee!!

Criticize NOT!

2009-08-20T15:39:00.003+08:00

You know how sometimes we may say things that can really hurt a friend but fail to realize how that friend of ours feels.
Deep down inside his or her heart and thoughts we do not really know what is going on. How she or he feels we do not know. All we really care is about ourselves and fail to give a shit about our comments on someone else account.

A family member told me that if you are gonna talk or criticize someone, make sure that person is around to defend himself/herself. Another friend also said that if you seriously hate a person so much.. the best way is to have a decent conversation with that particular person and tell him/her how you really feel about his/her attitude. I guess that will solve the problem unless your level of ego is sky high then I guess you just aint being the better person and if you are to shy to talk face to face then pick up the phone and talk!

Oh yeah, if unless you have spoken to that person about their bad attitude and if that person do not change to be a better person and still irritates the living daylight of you, the best solution is to let it be. They will learn in time to come as long as you know that you've done your part. If ever that person gets upset with you for being honest then I guess it's their lost that they cannot except the fact that they have a problem. Easy.

Reason why I'm saying all this is because, I know of someone who is so hurt over what her friend said about her. He actually criticize her in public and he had a good laugh about it.. knowing that she is the type of person who do not really argue for the sake of 'keeping the friendship' now she feel's hurt over something she could have defended.

Tho they are still friends- him not knowing of the hurt he caused her.. she hopes that one day he'll find the time to look back and make a change and be respected once again.

So, the best is not to talk bad or criticize someone if you don't like to be bullied and be criticized in return- especially not in public. What goes around comes around; it's not a curse but a fact. The other thing you should consider are your kids.. you just never know who they might turn into. So.. be careful with your words. It'll only hit you when you least expect.

Oh finally, looking back at how I was when I was younger and comparing then and now, I realised that I've learn to appreciate myself better every time I pull myself back from bitching about others.

What makes a Relationship and Friendship?

2009-08-18T15:16:00.003+08:00

I do think a lot these days. Lately I've been thinking of situations to make people closer together.

It's funny sometimes what we do during different situations.. I'm already smiling now thinking of two different scenarios that are running through my mind. These funny moments may build friendships, spread love or even help us make new friends as we grow..

First of all, there are moments when someone needs to fart badly. I have a few friends who make melodies with their farts (not hearts). Harmonious melodies that can make you run away and laugh hysterically till your stomach hurts. It's an awesome moment because it's my friend who is the farter and I feel very comfortable with that- not that I encourage them to fart in my face but somehow, it makes our friendship stronger. These are friends that are genuine enough to be your friend and they are the ones whom I categorize them as the 'down to earth' people. Its so amazing at how relationships build with just a fart.

Another moment is when there is a power failure in the office. You know how some offices are so quiet and all you hear are whispers, the sound of the printer from one corner of the room etc, it's all those tiny noises and all of a sudden while you are typing your report your PC just goes off and there's total blackness and everyone goes 'Oh, No! My work!'hahaha... I had an experience whereby my office had a power failure for more than 3 hours. A few of my colleagues got together, chit chatted over everything except work. It was fun! Then comes the accounts executive who loves to laugh over every small thing. To her everything is funny.. I call her strange. =) She started to play music from her handphone whilst singing along. I remember her singing You Are the Sunshine of My Life by Stevie Wonder. Well, just imagine her singing with her Sabahan/Chinese accent. It was so funny that I secretly recorded her signing via my phone. These are those moments that makes our relationship amongst our colleagues grow.

I'll soon think of more precious moments. For now, if you ask me what makes a relationship, I would definitely say FART and POWER FAILURE. Maybe I should start to write those pocket size books on Relationships and Friendships made out of Farts and Power Failure. AVAILABLE AT ALL BOOKSTORES NATIONWIDE!

The Art Of A Good Marriage

2009-08-05T14:44:00.003+08:00

Happiness in marriage is not something that just happens.
A good marriage must be created. In marriage the little things are the BIG things. It is never being too old to hold hands. It is remembering to say “I love you” at least once a day.
It is never going to sleep angry. It is at no time taking the other for granted; the courtship should not end with the honeymoon, it should continue through the years. It is having a mutual sense of values and common objectives. It is standing together facing the world. It is forming a circle of love that gathers the whole family.
It is doing things for each other, not in the attitude of duty or sacrifice, but in the spirit of joy. It is speaking words of appreciation and demonstrating gratitude in thoughtful ways.
It is not looking for perfection in each other. It is cultivating flexibility, patience, understanding and a sense of humour. It is having the capacity to forgive and forget. It is giving each other an atmosphere in which each can grow old. It is a common search for the good and the beautiful. It is establishing a relationship in which the independence is equal, dependence is mutual and the obligation is reciprocal. It is not only marrying the right partner; it is being the right partner.

Something to ponder upon ...

2009-08-05T12:23:00.002+08:00

Let your love be stronger than your hate and anger.
Learn the wisdom of compromise, for it is better to bend a little than to break.
Believe the best rather than the worst.
People have a way of living up or down to your opinion of them.
Remember that true friendship is the basis for any lasting relationship. The person you choose to marry is deserving of the courtesies and kindnesses you bestow on your friends.
Please hand this down to your children and your children’s children.

2009-08-03T01:40:00.004+08:00

I've been thinking.. these are my thoughts thus far:

1) Deja Vu scares the hell out of me, knowing that it happened before, and hell, yes it better be all coming from the good side of the past!

2) Men. These days women have to make the first move.

3) Work is never gonna end till the day you die.

4) Coffee is better than smoking. The stick finishes faster than the drink.

5) Laughter is always the best medicine. Especially, when laughing with your friends.

6) Puking in a Tiger ice bucket is better than puking on the dance floor! =P

7) Burping is disgusting. Farting is hilarious- it makes people around you laugh.

8) I can never stop thinking even if it's past my bedtime!

Tragic yet a Blessing

2009-07-27T20:49:00.004+08:00

You would probably not be reading this blog now and you would be attending my funeral tomorrow.

The moment I stepped in the car, I sensed something was not right so I prayed asking God to guide me as I drive and to protect the road users.

After meeting up with Val, Rupa, JP and Dhana. Driving at 80 kmph back home around 7.57 pm. (Normally it would be 100 kmph on a regular road). Feeling very tired, wanting to go to the loo badly, my mind was focused on reaching home safely as I also had to send my sis for her tuition which would start at 8.00pm. I was late.

Not many cars on the road and the traffic was smooth. So I drove my way home as I would on an ordinary night after a long stressful day at work.

As I was approaching the JVC round-about, SMC on my right. Two idiots were standing in the middle of the freaking road, in between the junction into the roundabout and the high-way (go figure). The fools were hesitating to cross as I approached the roundabout. I pressed on to my breaks, yes, my signal was blinking and my mind when blank when I saw those two idiots trying to cross, everything turned blurry. If I had pressed on my emergency breaks, the car behind me would have hit me bad- I had to think fast, as I swerved to the left, the two idiots moved backwards, so i swerved to the right, and they move forward. What the hell!! What were they thinking??!! Shit!

I screamed! All I could think of.. SHIT I'm gonna kill them! Damn.. the moment was so bloody intense and yet I had to think fast or else me, my car and the two clowns would have been gone by now. Imagine our body parts all over the road, blood and brains splattered all over and you will never see me again!

My hands and legs shivering as I drove back thanking God for taking over the wheel.

Knowing that I have loads to accomplish as a Catholic, as a daughter, as a sister and as a friend.. HE knew that I needed another chance to live. Gosh!! I will never forget that scary moment and I do seriously hope that the two clowns learn how to cross the road and NEVER hesitate when crossing the road. People like this can KILL you instantly and it becomes a fault you will never be able to forgive yourself.

So yeah, a tragic yet a blessing to me on a blue blue Monday.

Just make yourself happy lah...

2009-07-17T00:10:00.008+08:00

Its always better to ignore the sad part in life and stay focus on the happiness that awaits you.
So if you seriously feel like shit at this point of time, leave the place, go get a breather and kiss the pain goodbye. You waste your time thinking too much bout nothing and soon realize that no one really cares about how you feel. Only you know how you feel and only you know what to do with that feelings you have inside. Trust me, only you can make yourself happy first and no one else. So cut the efin crap and move on in life.

Shit happens for a reason and for one reason only.
Go figure.

Just one tought I have

2009-05-16T13:20:00.002+08:00

Life has so much to give and I really want the best of it.

The Man Up There..

2009-05-08T12:20:00.000+08:00

Its 12:12 p.m and I'm at my desk trying to work.. and all I can think is what I really want in life. I'm not asking much, and that is what I tell myself. All that matters is to be happy and to be sure that I get to heaven peacefully. In the process of having a good life here on earth, I know that there's going to be challenges, obstacles, temptations, guilt, hurt and frustrations. Yep, it's those kind of things that I'll have to face for next 50-60 yrs of my life. Scary but I guess it's true..

I have not touched mid-life crisis and I'm already talking about it now. Well, I'm not going to complain about the challenges, obstacles, temptations, guilt, hurt and frustrations I'm facing from time to time but I'm pleased at where I am now, with a roof over my head, with a stabil career (for now due to the economic downturn =) and of course, the very good people around me.

So here I am, trying to describe what I think about life and about the Man who created me. Not as deep as I think it is.

I believe that God does everything to perfection and he knows everything that is about to happen to me. He sees the things I do, every thought I have, the next step Im gonna make, the words I'm gonna say, etc. So, here I am, imagining God looking at me from above and He's yelling at me telling me to drive safely or to say left when it's a left turn and not say right when it's a left turn! He must be saying, "Oik, woman... you don't even know your left and right??" It' seriously embarrassing.. I sweat blood everytime I have to give directions. LOL.

Another thing God might say is, "Dei woman, your mother didn't teach you about finding the right guy??" Ouch.. yeah, I wonder if He ever thinks of me like that.. and another, ""Delia, if you swear once more time, I'm gonna come down and get you!" Jeez.. I'm not making fun here but I feel that God made us in his own image and this is my kind of God whom I talk to every day and night.

So bottom line is, He knows everything about me and he knows what my future will be.. do the right thing and leave the rest to God. Just don't take Him for granted, cos he did tell me once that I've got to use my gifts and use it wisely and he'll take over from wherever I left off. He knows that I can handle only so much and if the burden is too heavy to carry, he directs us to a different road and everytime I take a new path, I learn something from it and it makes me wiser. So you see, I learn along the way that everything is possible if we have God in our lives.

I WISH

2008-07-02T17:21:00.001+08:00

To see a shooting star
To go for a holiday in Rome, Spain, Hawaii and Paris
To be a billionaire and still be happy
To have my face on the billboard someday
To have my hair really short and straight
To live by the beach
To shake hands with the Pope
I could read and speak Japanese, Tamil, Cantonese, and French
To read people’s mind
I could read a guy’s mind
I had a magic wand
I could stay home and enjoy life and still stay super rich
To strike a lottery today
To stay healthy forever
That people could easily pronounce my name!

More to come.. n yes, wishes do come true! Be careful what you wish for.. =D

Finger Smellin' & Nose Diggin'

2008-04-30T12:39:00.000+08:00

By accident, I saw my colleague put her right hand under her blouse and scratch her armpit, scrathing it like as if she had bites all over it. Suddenly she takes her hand out and quickly put it to her nose pretending like as if she was thinking.. she leaves her fingers at her nostrils wondering if her armpit stinked. Oh my gosh I could see her breathing hard! Why do people do this to themselves??!

I was so disgusted and so irritated. My day was almost destroyed by what I just saw and I was so petrified to know that she actually smelled her fingers after scratching her armpit! What the ****.

Ok ok, sometimes I noticed and I observe what people do to themselves. I wonder if smelling their fingers after they hold something or scratch their scalp or look at their fingers after they just dig their nose (in the car or while shopping), smelling their armpits or pretending to yawn and closing their mouth but actual fact they actually want to know if their breath stinks or not?

Why are men and women so disgusting I wonder? I'm guessing if they need self- esteem or is it just a habit they picked up since kindergarten. I've seen little kids do all those stuff but not adults! I mean we as adults should be more carefull of the surroundings we're in and sometimes to realise that we are being watched.

I mean if you think you stink, go to the washroom and go get urself cleaned up, spray some perfume or use baby wipes to clean urself. Baby wipes comes in really handy!

We can't be perfect neither can we be clean and smelling good all the time, but bad habits like this should stop.